I was at church two Sundays ago. The service was great, but the pastor said something that made me look within myself. When we hold unforgiveness in our hearts it holds us back from blessings that God wants to give us.
For a long time I held unforgivenesss in my heart. I was mad at the people who bad mouthed me, I was mad at the pastor who insulted me at a church. I was hanging on to those hurt feelings and I allowed that to grow into something that was so big I could not let go of it.
Forgiving someone who has hurt you is never easy, especially for me with all the emotions I go through. But I knew what I had to do. I knew that I could not enter 2018 with that darkness in my heart.
As fate would have it, the following week that same pastor who I had an issue with, came to my church to be a guest speaker. Honestly, I was upset at first but as I sat there trying to block her out, I got a great revelation. I realized in that moment what I had to do and I was given the strength to do it.
After the service ended, I got up and went straight to that pastor and I said " I have held on to a lot of hate and unforgiveness toward you. I want you to know I am sorry and I just asked God to forgive me and I love you".
When I said those words and hugged the pastor in genuine love and peace. I felt like a ten thousand pound load was lifted off me. I came home and I called the names of the people I was holding grudges against and I asked God to forgive me and to help me so I never did that again.
Today, January 4th 2018. I have let go of all unforgiveness that was sitting in my heart and I have decided to forgive. Not necessarily because they deserve it, but because I deserve peace and I deserve to be happy.
When I held onto things it made me bitter and it kept me from fulfilling my destiny. I am happy to LET IT GO.
My hope for this new year is to love, to not take things personally and to forgive. Remember we must forgive so we can be free. Here's hoping for better days for us all. I would like to wish you all a very happy 2018. May God bless and prosper you this year and beyond.
Until next time.
- Latoya.
